Here goes nothing. Right now it is night. I'm typing on a computer which happens to be a Windows. I'm okay with windows but some say that mac is better. Such people include my friend Vince. Vince says that it's good for making movies. I do need to make my movie because I need to top his Saw movie he made last nine weeks which was super awsome. I don't know why he likes Saw so much. It's like his obsession or something. Saw is okay but it gets kind of predictable when all the victims die. Dieing isn't a big thing too me. I reached a level of acceptance in my life when i could accept things that I can't control. One thing I wish I could control is the fact that if my days start off good then wind up bad in the afternoon and vice versa. I swear I have some kind of Zen thing going on here. Speaking of Zen, sometimes I get a little uncomfortable reading things about Buddah and Zen in O&M. It's not that I am against it or anything it's just that it is out of my religion. Maybe that is why I don't feel comfortable around my band mate Binder. He is some kind of buddist I for got which one. I'm very sure that is how you spell his last name because they said that it just like the way you spell binder. I miss my old binder. It had all my favorite comics on it. Now I'm stuck with a red binder that doesn't have that clear plastic on the cover. Although it is a little less distracting in class, but sometimes class could get a little boring that I need some kind of outlet. Good thing I have my sketchbook. I swear if I didn't have some kind of outlet I would explode. Still haven't yet. Maybe I some how used to it. It's not a big surprise I guess. I've been stressed out my whole life. With doubts about my future, choices that would lead up to future. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choices in my life. Even though I've only been alive for fifteen years, still doubt myself. Looking back at my years I look at how much time I have left in this world. Not to say that I'm afraid to die it just that I want to make the most of the gift that God has given us. I still wonder when I'm going to die. Just the fact that it could be at anytime it's just unnerving. What else is unnerving is the fact that on "The Universe" it said that there in fact there could be more than one universe. So I guess that would make it a Mulitverse. Then wouldn't the show be called the Multiverse if they are aware of the presanse of more than one verse. If you are wondering this show is on the History Channel which is ironic that this clearly scientific show is on a channel didicated to history? I don't know, maybe it is true that all subjects are intertwined. That would explain my two best subjects( math and Science) are so easy for me. I don't get why people don't get those two subjects. They are so easy. Maybe it is the same way with me and the news. Why is the news full of bad news. does this mean good news isn't important? In this world that God created both good and evil, there has to be as much good as there is bad. That's the liberal media for you. It wouldn't be the first time. It was liberal media who brain washed the germans to believe Hitler's propaganda. It is wierd that the spanish word for advertisment is progaganda. This created a hot debate in Spanish the other day. It was funny that the spanish teacher didn't know the spanish word for propaganda. Maybe it's the same word then how do you know which word is which in dialouge? Maybe you need to use context clues. Context clues were easy for me in elementary. Then again everything was easy for me in elementary. Maybe this is why I was I chosen as GT for math. GT means gifted and talented but everybody is talented in one way or another. Why do we need a pieces of paper with our name on it to tell us something that we already know. This what I used to say when I watched people get more awards for usless honors such as perfect attendance. Perfect attendance has to be the sorriest honor out there. I mean what is the significance of going to school everyday. I seen people get perfect attendance and I know that I still smarter than them in so many ways even though I missed a couple of days. The word smart is a funny word. It means both high intelligence and sharp pain. I guess this could explain why people use the expression smart as a whip. I guess (yawn)... I could... come....... some.....conclusion.....ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
